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suppose to be spencer from criminal minds.

it was fun to draw.

enough said.

very frustrated at this point in time

teachers are jerks, seriously total power hungry losers who couldn't get a real job so they take it out on their students (note some teachers are great but there are a seldom few who take joy in my misery)

Today i was suppose to go to the Vancouver Art Gallery, this is the first 'field trip' i have been on that was fun educational (fish hatchery scarred me for life) so i have missed some school that week already, when i show up to art class 2 days before i ask the teacher what i missed, he says; "not much, just some painting and a new project." So i stay in at lunch to finish this project. So i go in this morning to be greeted by a friend, we both walk to the art class in anticipation for the art gallery. My name is suddenly called and a teachers says i haven't handed in my form i say "yes i did, i handed it into the office," she says"no there's another form." She shows me the form and says did you get this one? you have to go around to all your classes and get your teachers to sign it, you have ten minutes. Okay, right then and there i knew i was doomed but i set out anyways on this impossible mission.

I go to my ass of a socials teachers first, i hand him the form which is blank and he says "i don't sign anything that is blank" (that's reasonable) so i get out a pencil and fill in my name and write ' Vancouver ART Gallery' i tell him i have ten minutes to get everything signed, and that's when he starts to slow down. He looks at my paper and says you wrote it in pencil i can't sign something you wrote in pencil you might change it, so i dug through my bag and handed I'm a pen, he look at it " i can't sign in blue pen" so i look again through my bag for a blue pen. He looks at the paper for 30 seconds before signing it and then gives me a speech about how i shouldn't go on this trip

(this teacher has valid points but really i know what he is doing, he likes to have all the control and power, and since he isn't a very important person in rank he uses what power he has on the only people with no say/ the students, he is a sad pathetic little man// i know that is harsh but he's an ass// and i don't talk back to him in the slightest because he could be worse)

so he takes forever and none of my other teachers are in their classrooms, so i go to the office, my English teachers away, my philosophy teacher doesn't get there till 8:30/ we are leaving at 8:10, and my art teacher i waiting for me, i ask is there any other person who can sign, but apparently he's not there (guidance counselor)

so i go back to the art class and i tell the teacher what i happened, he says something along the lines of ' sorry sarsh, not going to happen' so i crumple up the paper and put it into the garbage can and say "thank you" (actually said that)

oh and the office can't give me a refund.

this isn't a big deal, deaths a big deal, this is nothing but still the Vancouver Art Gallery, i was really looking forward to something like this.

blehhh.

jesus christ!

ok i have i deveinat art account and it says my age (16), so i change my profile picture and i make a joke about it and this person writes something along the lines of ' a good pic of a pretty woman' first of all i check who sent it and it's some 23 year old// i am not flattered by this comment in fact i think it's a bit creepy, no a lot creepy. my age is clearly stated buddy, wtf.

do people really feel flattered by those comments, i dunno why, and it's not like it was some revealing picture, very G rated (Disney would love it) to prove it i have uploaded the picture. i made a joke about it saying worst picture and mistake in history (because i cut my own hair)

i may be over reacting, probably am, but he's 7 years older and i find it weird that he is commenting on my page, use those words on someone closer to your age.

Questinable

I believe my mom is ignoring me..........

I sent her an e-mail a week ago and she hasn't responded, I've called several times (4) and i sent her an e-mail on facebook, she hasn't responded, so i think she may be avoiding me. This may sound paranoid, it might be paranoid to believe my own mother would ignore me, but i still feel this way. It's funny i don't know if she is or isn't what does that say about our dynamics?

This also brings to question is there ever a time where she has avoided me, or am i seriously unbalanced. (those were both rhetorical questions/ that's why I feel the need to leave out question marks, form otherwise valid questions)

it's 9:08pm it's snowing giant Q-tips outside and sticking!

this made my day and i hate snow :)

this is been the happiest thing that is happened to me in a while and i am genuinely ecstatic, which is sort of sad, but non the less great even though of all things snow, which i hate, is making me happy, i am not making sense but i don't care-very happy at this second and i don't really know why-it's great.

my friend frank

don't understand

plus, people don't understand me.

>like the little things i have a problem with like i can't trust people (every time i do i get hurt)

>or how i can't say i love you ( my friend thinks it's funny/ she's a goof ( in a good sense))

>how i can't just relax apparently i am calm just guarded

i think all theses fall into the same category

plus this is one i noticed, people don't seem to get how i feel about them sometimes, my friends always wonder if i care for them, which i think is absured. Plus it seems that when i say something people don't get if it is suppose to be mean or nice because it's neutral, i rarely say mean things and when i do i feel bad and apologize. i can't really explain the last thing very well and i am really bad at expressing my feelings, but you would know if you really pissed me off (you would of had to bullied someone or hurt an animal) because i know how it feels to have been bullied and hurting any animal is wrong.

i am going on random tangents because i am bored plus i though i should write more on this blog

out of controll

there is this boy, he was my friend throughout elementary and midddle school, in high school he left to be home schooled (couldn't handle regular school i guess) i wasn't bent out of shape about him leaving, i didn't even really care.

this year i went to a new high school and once i told my friend he found out somhow and came to the school where i was at, no problem, accept now he is always hanging out with me, getting angry if i don't hang out with him or hang out with my friends, and he constantly messages me or comments on my facebook, i have told him several times that i don't want to hang with him, not in a mean way we were friends and all and we still could be if he wasn't always so desperate to cling to me, and when i do hang out with him all he does is not talk and stare at me, he follows me everywhere and i missed last week becuase i was ill and he sent me 10 messages, plus a message saying 'where are you?! did u die, i am lonley at school without u' no joke.

My life feels out of control, like everything is coming at me from all sides, it's really getting hard to handle, i feel as if i may break.

four twenty

420 people have viewed my blog, 4:20 is a time in the evening or morning, and 4 20 is national pot smoking day (april 20th) i don't smoke pot, feeling stupid is not a goal of mine.