yea haven't been on here in a while, it's getting old to tell you the truth, but nothing but happy sunshine thoughts, drew some pictures i would like to share. :) to see more go to

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decided to get the guts and ask this guy out, we had been talking for a while he kept brushing my hair back from my face and saying shit like how pretty i was, i honestly thought he liked me so one day i told him i liked him the middle school kind of like like and he said 'oh' and said i was a nice girl but he didn't like me, motherfucker.

who the hell flirts like that and just cuz? toying with my emotions, whywhywhywhy?!

parents when they act like children in petty ways is pathetic it actually disgusts me and i have to live with it it is like having a gossipy teenage girl in the house a mean gossipy teenage girl and i hate it and now my whole family loves hear and since she hates me i get excluded a lot, what the hell i hate my fucking family i know all teens are suppose to but i really hate mine

probably just saying the extreme because i am veryveryvery angry and hurt and upset and they dont care no exaggeration.

my computer went all weired and i got what you see below this post!

i got this wicked bat necklace which you may all have a picture in your mind of what i may be talking about but it's no where near what you are thinking

इ हवे बीन स्तायिंग अत माय फ्रिनेड्स हाउस फॉर अबाउट अ वीक एंड आईटी इस सफे तो से ठाट लिविंग विथ हेर इस मच दिफ्फेरेंत फ्रॉम माय एवेर्य्दय लाइफ।

no big deal

christmas has come and gone. there was a debate at my school weather we should be allowed to say merry christmas to people, because it's christ mas and a lot of people are not religious or have different beliefs some even said it was offensive.

give me a freaking break, why the hell does this matter?

if you were saying racial slurs i could understand the need to stop it in it's tracks, but 'marry christmas' it's not going to release a pandemic of plague and locus (another religous thing)

holy cow, i don't believe in god and jesus and the cross thing and i don't feel the need to be offended when someone says to me merry christmas, you just say it back no big deal.

i know i am making a big deal about a not so big deal which makes it my big deal which i am now infecting your brains with but really.

tangent of the decade

i love that i may have 520 views, but no comments, what is this!

i have a myspace and it's pretty pathetic, i made it last week or the week before and it's depressing.

my facebook is the complete opposite, not pathetic at all, it may surprise you but i actually don't go on the computer that much.

2010 is approaching, no more 00's here, and you'll never see them again unless you live forever or a very long time and make it to 3000 which would be awesome and suck all at once, you might even say bitter sweet? i wouldn't like to live forever unless some other people did as well and they weren't total jerks, i say more than one because after forever you would get really sick and tired of the same person and you might beg for death because of boredom.

nothing would mean anything anymore life wouldn't be as precious and you wouldn't be thankful for everyday you spend on earth because you live forever, you would take life for granted.

plus if you lived forever are you still aging or are you stuck at some age?, because if you are living forever and aging forever you'd be in a lot of pain, because you're body would wear down, and staying the same age would have limitations, if you cared for someone who wasn't living forever and they started to die or get older if you are quite young they would have to move on or be accused of being a pedophile.

i like the Buddhist ideals about reincarnation, you die but come back, not aware of your past lives, i think this belief is my favorite, people are afraid to die and to comfort themselves they have come up with different ways of saying when you die you don't actually stop existing you go on to another life or you go to a place where they decide if you are bad or good and if you re good you get rewarded (sounds like santa)

psychological war fair.

it snows like crazy, it goes away, it gets really cold, it turns around and get hot.

it seems i am hypersensitive to change at the moment, my dad thinks i have OCD because i spent an hour trying to get a plastic wrapper to tear straight and when it didn't i continued till it pissed him off so he got me some scissors, i might i don't know but that stuff really bugs me.

my sister likes to steal things from my room but she does it one at a time so i know something is missing but i don't know what it is, and it bothers me once again. so i decided get revenge on her, i cleaned her room, organized all 57 of her nail polish containers in a row the labels facing out, i made her bed, organized her closet, everything is even and in place. her room never looks even and in place she'll know it's all different but she won't believe i changed it she'll think 'Sarah must have done this, but wait, why would she clean my room? did she take anything' then she'll march to my room where i will be drawing and she'll say something like 'stay out of my room' and I'll say 'i didn't go in your room' she'll probably look confused and ask me who did then, and I'll say something along the lines of 'i don't know'

my sister will be so confused by the dramatic change in her room that she will not notice i took a pair of giant blue scissors from the middle of her table, this plan has flaws but it's psychological war fair.

she'll not know what hit her.

evil? yes, necessary? to me yes, but not really.

jesusfackingchrist

my parents haven't talk to each other in six years, tonight they went and talked about me deciding if i get to live with my mom, which i have been begging to do since the summer. they left at 6:00pm my dad came back at 10:00pm and said nothing to me...........JESUS CHRIST!

when i get stressed i hyperventilate and sometimes throw up, i have extreme anxiety and have been diagnosed with depression, wtf are they playing with me like this, they are my parents! i am totally freaking out because they don't give me a facking straight answer!!!!!

(i spelt facking like that on purpose)

fivefrickenhundred

500 is half of 1000

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's pretty cool that this has been viewed 500 times

i was going to say by 500 people but it's probably repeated offenders

thanks anyways 500 is better then 499 !