my first two days of classes.
\wow.
i live in a small town so being indipendant in sanfransisco is a bit overwelming considering i take the bart (a train) to sanfran. then i have to find the right bus to my first class and there is like a million busses there.
but it's amazing i recomend AAU to anyone who wants to go there accept there are alot of wierdos, i got harassed 3 times in just one hour.

i tried to make that as short as possible, it's quite short but if i start to go into detail it'll take me a couple hours to finish.

haven't made any friends/ social outcast to one and all :) -it's best that way not to make attachments to people that you'll leave in 6 weeks.

i sent an e-mail to dragon telling her what will happen if she stays with that guy, sent it about a week and a half ago-no response.

i have to leave it at that because i am using the sole free time where i am the only one at home to write this and they will be home soon and i don't want to share my thoughts with them

god ther are home now bye.

honesty

still in canada :(

got my braces off :)

all packed :)

leaving tommorow :)

stressed out of my mind :0

hate chilliwack :(

actually want to live with my mother :S

can't take emotional rollacoaster of a family :(

bought socks with dragons on them :D

gunna wear them with black fishnets and pumps to church ;)

have portfolio ready :)

finished exams!!!! :D

want to get my tounge pierced :D

don't know if i should :/

dad can't stop me :)

all this is what i am thinking right now and some other stuff, if people just said what they actually were thinking and feeling the world would be a more honest place

*notice i didn't say better*

pathetic worthless scum who doesn't deserve to show his face and not be ashammed

i haven't said much on the topic of a-use-to-be-good-friend dragon because well now she is a-use-to-be and not a currently-is-goood-friend.
the thing is she likes to steal other girls boyfriends lucky for me my record of bfs is a record high one :P so problem there but she started hanging out with this completely ugly (inside and out) guy in grade 12 and the thing is she pounces on any guy who gives her a speck of attention, anyways she and this guy hang out i don't like him but well they are only hanging out right?? WRONG.
this guy lets call him shreck (because he looks a lot like shreck-minus the green) see shreck has a gf at this point in time so dragon decides to become friends with her......... it's a really long story (about 10 months worth) but the gist is she befriended this girl to get closer to shreck and her and shreck snuck around his real gfs back only to make her cry at school a lot because she was so confused and didn't understand why shreck was cheating on her but when she said this to him he told she was paranoid making her feel guilty, eventually she got really depressed and dumped him and he didn't care he just went to dragon.

i tried telling her to stop but she didn't care now she has lost her friends and their respect and this guy is complete scum i went up to him and bitched him out for what he'd done to such a nice girl (not dragon) he thought it was hilarious and walked away with dragon.

the worst thing though is he slept with his gf and right after went to go hang out with dragon after not even saying goodbye to her or acknowledging her existence once he got what he wanted-complete scum. i know this because she told my friend while she was crying.

and i have lost complete hope that there is a guy out there that likes you for who you are and isn't just after something, it's sad but true, and it's not just this experience that convinces me of this.

ouch!
getting pierced (stomach) hurts

hectic!

tommorow ima dying my hair and getting pierced sat. i am going to my moms sun. i am studying for my exams mon. i do my exams tues. i pack for california/sanfransisco wed. i get my braces off!!! finish my last exam and go to california/sanfransisco!!!!!
dear lord

bored stupid with nothing to say

today i got bored in class and i had a liquid eyeliner pen and well lets just say almost my complete torso is covered in intricate designs :P
since mention the topic of makeup (liquid eyeliner which by the way hurts like heck if you get it in your eye)
i don't understand why people wear it, i don't. i only have makeup because my mom buys me exactly the same things my sister wants so i get loads of makeup that i use for different medias in my art sometimes
but why do people wear it?/ mostly girls, but is it to cover yourself up? to hide behind a mask??
once i put on makeup and my wierd neighbor from Coq. got upset telling me i'm hiding my natural beauty........................................................................................................................PPFFFFTTTT!!!!
ha. ha. ha. omg wata load a crap, i guess she was on drugs or something and she couldn't tell what i look like :)
but girls spend hundreds on cosmetics and stuff to gob on their face to what look prettier?
so no offence or whatever to those who wear it, actually offence to those who do because if everyone one stopped doing it and stopped trying to look like photoshopped models in tv shows and commercials everyone would have better self esteem and be more happy,, i think

on a happy note i am happy

and i feel like swearing ( the following is rated PG/ strongly worded ) : damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn

glasses

it's early, this is probably the earliest time i have ever written a post.......well except on the weekend when i go to sleep about 5 am (i'm a night person) so an update.....I GOT THE GLASSES!!!!
lame i know for people who just don't give a damn, but very meaningful to me
and if you are wondering what i had to do in return, it was nothing in comparison to what i thought might have to do just weed are whole backyard which is hughe because are house is huge and we have gardeners who usually do that and give her $10
That's all.

i would just like to note i used the word damn *gasp*

suck it up, and just be an actual parent for once

my sister is the spawn of satan, people may think i aM exaggerating but no she is the most evil b. that ever lived
this may sound very harsh and that i in fact may the a b. for saying this but it's true
i have proof
1) if she knows i want something she takes it just so i can't have it
ex: there was some really wicked old school Ray Bands in our basement and k. new i wanted them so she ran to my dad and was crying and saying she was sad and the only way for her to be happy was for her to have the sunglasses. i of course didn't mind as long as she actually wore them, so months go by and she just left them wedged in between stuff ,never actually wearing them so yestrday it's so freaki'n sunny out and i don't actually own a pair of sunglasses ,and she was gone so i asked my dad if i could wear them considering k. since recieving them a couple months ago hasn't worn them so he said yes as long a k. doesn't see you wearing them (because we all know she will pull a huge fit if she did.) so i wear them to school and now i have grown completley attached to them so when i go home i am deciding to ask her if i can have them.
well as soon as i open the door my dad runs to me hands out saying 'quick give me the glasses!' and i say why and he says k. is home so i quickly give them to him but still i say 'can i have them so i can ask her if she will give them to me?' he gives me a wary look and agrees so i go down stairs where she is playing on her brand new mac laptop ( my dad gave me his hand-me-down 5yrs old one that sucks because they couldn't afford to get me one) so i go hey k. i was wondering, since you don't wear them can i have theses glasses she looks at me looks at the glasses and yells"NO! GIVE ME BACK MY GLASSES I HAVE BEEN LOOKING ALL OVER FOR THEM' this of course is a lie but what am i to do so i give them to her.
just so you know my sister has 5 pairs of brand new sunglasses all of them ray bands and yet she won't give me the six pair and the only reason i like them is because they were my nana's and she died and when she died i actually cried my sister no joke was happy because she hated my nana and didn't shed one tear-honestly i am not making any of this up.
so today i am still completley hung up on these very important to me glasses so i go to her with what i thought was a good idea i say k. i will pay you whatever you want for those glasses she looks up from her laptop and says how much you got i tell her to name her price 10$? $20 i had about eighty but if i told her that she would make me pay eighty she looks at me again and can probably see how desperate i am to have those glasses that i am willing to pay anything so she says 'no, get outa my room'
how evil and she said she as wearing them yesterday but i fond them on the bathroom floor under a bunch of her clothes!!
and my dad is afraid to upset her so she gets what she wants when ever and i am left with 'your the oldest ,your sister, she is suppose to be like this to you.' she makes such a fuss of everything that i keep all my emotions bottled up and my opinions unknown so i don't send my parents over the edge because they are to busy trying to handle her and by the way she isn't even a little kid she is 14

i know it's silly yo be upset over a pair of sunglasses but really
if you think i am toatlly overreacting please say something it's best to get an outsiders opinion because my parents won't say anything they are to affraid of up setting k.

teaching gym teachers to run

ahahahaaa!!!
my dad finally agreed to let me get a tattoo!!!!-life's good :P
well there is conditions
1) have to pay for it myself- no big it's 120$ per hr.
2) have to do research on where i what place i want to get it done- found that the second i realized i wanted a tattoo!
3) can't be anything inapropriat- as if

i am so pumped it's a couple lines from a book-duh, and it's a poem, i would write it down but well it's in German and the translation is not as pretty in english, the german language i find is not very languid, it doesn't roll off the tounge.
in other news it's so flippin hot out that i find that it is child abuse for the gym teachers to make us run around in the sun- if it's so easy why aren't they doing it??
'those who can't do, teach, those who can't teach, teach gym'

pencils; you are my heros

i had a seveare case of 'artists block' for a couple of months but now i am back and better then before!!!!!
literally speaking.