RAGE

OK friends can be complete jerks like say dragon ( a friend whose name i don't want to post and i have given her that name bcuz she likes to draw dragons)

anyways she keeps talking/ bragging about all the guys who ask her out and really I'm not jealous but a bit annoyed because she cannot for one instant sop talking about it to hear my problems. i know i sound like it's all about me but usually in a conversation with a person it involves two people talking together not someone solely blabbing about how so many boys ask her out it's a hardship. and a couple days ago she was all like seriously Sarah are u a lesbian and first i was surprised because i am not/ not that there is anything wrong with that, i believe everyone has the right to be happy, but well i like guys. anyways i asked her why such a completely random question and she said because i never go out with guys or even say anyone is attractive or whatnot. Well first i think it's stupid when girls all stand around talking about "hot" guys/ reason for quotation is because hot means a high temperature and if talking in that context if a guy is hot he is either on fire or has a fever in which case he should really go to the hospital. and second she never lets me talk! how am i supposed to tell her? by smoke signals?!?

oh and i tried to go and talk to said person i have a crush on or whatever ppl call them but well i turned to tell him and he was staring straight at me like into my eyes and all of a sudden i couldn't breath and i dunno he just makes me really nervous and i get all tongue tied when I'm around him GAH I'm falling apart!